Ever since I was a child I was very curious, very talented, open, and loved to explore the world – warrior-like and fearlessly; I wanted to know and learn EVERYTHING. Until the age of 5 – 6 years old nothing could stop me.
Then I lost this sense of self worth, direction, and power due to a traumatic childhood experience which impacted the way I was feeling and thinking about myself. Slowly but surely over the next four decades I felt less in control of my life and less valuable as a person. Internally I felt an increased pressure to proof myself of value and importance. I wanted to belong and being loved thinking that I wasn’t. If I should describe this process I would compare it with
…a leaking water bottle dripping its content into the ground to be lost forever.
Looking back from where I am now I can say:
My path taught me that…
- nothing ever gets lost, everything only transforms
- nothing needs healing but acceptance and integration
- personal choice exists every second and requires to take alert responsibility
Fortunately in the darkest times when I consciously choose to let myself go into the direction of intense pain and fear strange shifts have happened expanding my view within splits of seconds…and in some occasions transforming the situation completely and immediately (= sudden healing events).